| eternity will never be enough for me; |
[15 Jul 2006|10:55am] |
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This Years Love by David Gray |
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I really wish people were more active in this community. I mean, you can post an entry, even if you have been doing well. Those entries are always inspiring to read. :-]
I had a really deep conversation with my best friend the other night. We can relate to each other on so many things, so it's really easy to talk to her. There's no limits when we talk, either. But we both came to the conclusion that when people tell you that once you hit rock bottom there's nowhere to go but up, they're lying. We've both been through enough to know that that isn't what happens.
I don't believe there's such a thing as rock bottom for me. I believe that my little hole is a black hole. I either keep on falling, or I inch my way back to the top. & I'm not sure I'll ever reach the top.
I say that years from now I'm going to be different, but I'm not 100% sure of that. I wouldn't say I'm immature, but I definitely still have some growing up to do. & I don't want to grow up, so it's a problem.
I haven't SI-ed in atleast 2 weeks. I've no urge to fully stop cutting right now. The more I try to push myself to stop, the worse I get.
Anyways, how is everyone else doing? You guys should do some updates! I'd really like to read them. ©
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